In Power

Trusting the Reroutes, Redirections, and Dead Ends.

“You don’t want to be a quitter,
Just suck it up and keep going;
you’ll be fine.”
I told myself as I put on my headpiece, forced a smile, and picked up the next call.

The thought of quitting came to my mind more times than I could count.
But I couldn’t allow myself to walk away.

I had just gotten the job a month ago.
I was four months postpartum and had no strength
to return to my small business.

So I ignored the red flags and kept going to keep my word and keep that check.

The more hours I worked, the more miserable, discontent, and empty I felt.

Two weeks later, I received my first check.
“Was it worth it?” I asked myself as I looked at my bank statement.
Hell no.

There was no joy.
There was no rest.
There was no ease.
But there was a lot of stress.

I turned in my resignation letter and decided to
take my power, joy, rest, and ease back.

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Immediately after pressing send, my shoulders relaxed; I caught my breath and embraced everything around me. The cries of my newborn twins brought a sense of grounding, and I knew then that whatever I choose to do with my life needs to be done with intention.

The following days I kept going back and forth, asking myself if I had made the right decision. If walking away from the check worth it?

But knowing I gave it a shot and realizing it didn’t work brought me peace.

These days I am learning to trust the reroutes of my life. Though there are many times I question myself, my work, and my worth, there’s never been a moment that I regret walking away from places that didn’t bring me peace.

I am learning that it is okay to still be figuring things out;
surrendering can lead you to your greatest strength.
And quitting doesn’t mean you’ve failed or given up.

Instead, it shows that you are aware of what’s not bringing you joy
and are choosing to walk away to step into your power.

The easiest thing to do is avoid pieces we are not at peace with.
But with avoidance, we welcome doubt, guilt, blockage, and headaches.

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This year I am challenging myself to walk confidently in my journey.
I choose to give myself grace in the journey of becoming, despite the redirections, reroutes, and dead ends.

I am protecting my peace, my heart, and my joy.

I am giving myself permission to hold and love myself through the process
while simultaneously leaning in, tending to the tension,
and making space for healing and new beginnings.

Community: What is something you are walking away from to step into your power this year?